Like most women, I tend to worry and overreact. It's just natural. Add that to being a mother, and it's taken to a whole new high. I am sooooooo nervous that something will go wrong with surgery. I don't want to die. But at the same time, if I continue down this path I'm on, it's just a matter of time before diabetes, heart disease, etc claims my life. I've weighed so many pros and cons in the last few months. I'm still convinced that weight loss surgery is the way to go to ensure the healthiest life for me. Like I said though, I'm so nervous something will go wrong with the surgery. I thought about writing letters to my kids that they can read one day just in case I don't make it out of the operating room. I told you I tend to overreact. I want them to know how much I love them, and how I'm doing this for them. They are my everything. Whenever I do anything in life, I think about how it will affect them. I love them so much. They are my world. I would die for them. I just hope it's not any time soon.